“Love yourself before loving others” were the words of advice I kept hearing when I was growing up. But my stubborn self could never comprehend it. When it comes to relationship, I’m one of those imbeciles who gave it all and never took it back. I will tolerate and stick with that one person no matter what and I suppose that’s when some people will see me as super needy, can’t live without the other half kinda person. And that went on for a very long time…
When I had to retain for a semester instead of graduating with my peers, I was embarrassed no doubt, but I accepted it with open arms. Things always happen for a reason and I am glad it did. That extra semester woke me up in many aspects I could have never expected, and after a very long time, I was actually truly happy… I learnt to love myself before loving others. Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You will think for yourself first and that’s when things get done. If you can learn to love yourself and all the flaws, you can love other people so much better. And that makes you so happy.
Yet something so simple tend to be so easily forgotten and overlooked when we are so caught up in our fast-paced life. I took a step back and did things for myself today, did things I enjoy. Forced myself out of bed and get things settled.. obviously I still have loads to do tomorrow but it’s better than wasting a day feeling sorry for myself. I reckon I may be too self-centered sometimes but honestly, if you don’t help yourself, no one is going to help you. I learnt this the hard way back then, god knows how many times I have cried and sucked it up.. and well still sucking it up and dealing with it now. But at least, I am much happier and satisfied with where my life is heading towards.
So next time when you’re feeling down, please love yourself a little more.. there is nothing wrong with cutting everyone off and spending some time with yourself. It’s very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person. You deserve that very least for yourself.